My Mountain

Ever since I was twelve I can remember the constant struggle of dieting. I remember thinking how no one could love me if I was fat and sometimes wishing to be fatter so that I didn't have to deal with the emotions of relationships. Then came high school and I wanted to be the belle of the ball but I didn't know how to so when I was so upset I turned to the one friend who had always been there for me...FOOD. Sadly, it turned against me and became my biggest foe.

Today I decided to tackle my biggest mountain. Something that has caused me so much pain and helped me so little. Today is the first day of the rest of my life. I am headed towards leaner living no matter the cost. I must fight this battle. I want to be able to enjoy the life that I have to live with my baby boy and my wonderful husband. My husband who loves me for the person I am on the inside and fell in love with that person first and was not ashamed of his 350 pound bride. Who reminds me of his love daily not only in words but in actions. My son who I dream of running all over with, playing and laughing which I can't do at nearly 350 pounds.

I want my son to remember me as someone who always loved and played with him not someone who was sick and hurting because of their weight.

Thank You Red Robin

Well, here I sit in the hospital on Day #19 since coming in for premature labor! One of my friends came to see me today and brought lunch. She had called and asked what I wanted and all I could think about was a cheeseburger. So she went to Red Robin and got us lunch and as she ordered she mentioned that she was bringing it to me in the hospital. They totally shocked her and the manager walked out and started punching keys. He said that our lunch was on them and sent my husband and I a $50 gift card. I appreciate it so much as hospital food was getting horrible.